Abuse

Abuse changes you
It affects what you think
It affects how you choose
Where you focus
And how you see the world

Your heart aches in a thousand
Unnameable ways
Your mind spins around
A whirlpool of memories
Circling the drain of what Is

Your daily life
Thoughts of what-might-have-beens
And what-ifs causing
Paralysis and questions
Leading you down

Into a depression
At the core of your being
Once acknowledged
Sharp edges fully felt
Will lead you slowly

Ever so slowly
Out of a coma
Walking stilted
And weak
Into a dimlit sun

Its not all bad
Because you lived
And you learned
Differently now
And breathe a new

Future protjecting itself
In front of you
Stretching and yawning
As it wakes
With possibilities

I wake
And still I rise
Each day
As more time goes by
My heart
Heals differently

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